361 – beautifully screwed

This week I realized that I might be in the habit of sabotaging my own success; I have to allow my self the chance to embrace and welcome whatever I achieve.

I am naturally afraid of both success and failure.  I am training myself to allow both. I think that if I can do this, I can allow myself to share my natural talents to the benefit of others, and I want to do this; I feel compelled to do this–a calling.  I want to use my talents and tortures to help and guide others.  I can do this, so I should.

I am beautifully screwed up that way.  😉